Being a better man starts with seeing yourself as you are. Sometimes that means seeing yourself lying in a dirt road laughing your ass off at the night sky during a blood moon lunar eclipse, because of the absurdity of it all. See, you stayed up even though you were exhausted to see this once in 32 years event, and now it’s completely cloudy and dark, and you haven’t set up camp. This is a silly place to start, but it’s as good a starting place as any.
The habits you have make up your character. Fortunately, this is not something you do too often, else people might think you were too much of a maniac to be near. The habits that make you less effective become clear from an external perspective. Touching the fat on your belly, your are reminded to eat healthy things, generally in moderation. A general malaise and lack of energy is impetus to get more exercise, and keep your body free of junk or toxins. Feeling cold and alone, you are reminded of those who make you feel comfort, so you call your wife and child, who badly need your support, especially because you must be away at the moment. Living your life apart no longer seems simply inconvenient, it seems unnatural. You should live with your family. This is the right way to love, and to nurture them, which is what wives and children (and anybody) generally need the most.
This makes sense. Now you have to make it work. You’re smart, you’ll figure it out.
You are grateful to have a borrowed hammock, and moreover, friends and family who care for you as you go to sleep. Good night.